Depression

I recently had quite a bad stint with the blues and on some or other scary level it inspired my to write a poem about it. It is a bit dark but totally shows how I feel about this. Here goes, my first attempt at poetry and that even with some dark subject matter.

Depression

I am sinking,
deeper and deeper,
into this black hole of despair.

The darkness surrounds me,
like a blanket of black snow.
It chills me to the bone,
and fills my soul with pointless pain.

The darkness are my friend,
it is my solitude and refuge.
A place to hide, a place to fade,
a place to change and dissolve into a liquid of pure sorrow.

They stuff me full of pills,
and my safe darkness disappear.
I am left in the uncaring light,
I can see but I cannot feel.

Pills may take away the dark,
but they steal your heart.
I would rather be sad and dark,
than light and numb.

There it is my ode to depression.

Comments

Depression is an uncomfortable and ugly partner in life. Mine comes and goes like the wind and settles round my house like snow on a city road: cold, dirty, slush :( Some days, he seems insurrmountable, others just annoying - like a teasing brother that needs telling to p*~~off!

Some days, I welcome my depression and ask him to come to bed with me so we can rest and feel better when we wake and tell him he can then go his own way for a while.

I know it sounds bizarre but I strive to have fun with my depression as it looks as though it's here to stay. I just don't let it smother me and I let it know that too. This is a way to allow the depression to exist but not fight with it, allow it to completely take over and in doing so, this somehow takes the emphasis off the depression and allows other parts of me to shine through.

I hope this can help in some teeny, tiny way :?

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