Loftpat
Senior member
- Joined
- Aug 12, 2013
- Messages
- 374
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 08/2013
- Country
- US
- State
- ME
If I don't vent, I'm going to explode. After years of supporting my husband and ensuring I had medical insurance coverage for him, caring for him,sending him to specialists, assisting with disability, etc.....he has decided that he needs to move on with his life because it's too hard living with someone who can no longer work and needs help. I feel like the milk train. And obviously he "got" my fibro only when I was still able to work and pay the bills, and he could use his disability check however he wanted. Now that I can no longer earn a good income and have been trying to rely on his help to pay bills (actually pleading), he decides to leave. I am angry and feel so incredibly used. I did all I could for him because I loved him. In retrospect, maybe too much. Now it seems that he loved my paycheck. So, he's gone to find himself, he says. I have used nearly every bit of my personal savings over the past two years keeping a roof over our heads. I even went back to work very part-time a few months ago to cover some expenses because he was unreliable, even though I can barely fulfill the expectations of my employer. I thank the universe that I have that small income and family who can help, but that just ruptures my independent soul. I guess I will have to try for disability, which makes me sad and stressed because that's such a crap shoot.
Okay. Done. Now onto sucking it up and moving ahead. Thanks for reading.
Okay. Done. Now onto sucking it up and moving ahead. Thanks for reading.