Flexecif...........I don't know if this will be helpful to you or not, but thought I would give it a try. I notice you say
"Some of us have to fight life twice as much as everyone else"
..........and I want to respond to that. Of course, I don't know what you really mean by that, and don't want to make assumptions and take it the wrong way. but just in case, I would like to say that even thinking about things as "fighting life" or fighting anything at all can be detrimental. Of course I don't mean be positive all the time, no one can be. but I make a point of not ever thinking in terms of fighting: not fighting fibro, not fighting my limitations, not fighting the current state of the world.....because none of those things can be effectively fought. And if I have a "fight with life" attitude, it only harms me, so instead I think in terms of things I am struggling with inside myself, and that brings me back to the acceptance of what is in the moment. I don't even like to think of fighting to stay healthy or fighting to manage things better, because just the term "fighting" is a negative. It helps me to remember that nothing has to be a fight. It's more a case of learning, adapting, knowing my truth and being willing to stand on it, and setting my boundaries both inside and outside myself. Kind of the way that most true martial arts are not about fighting the opposition or winning, but rather about deflecting their approach.
As I say, that may not be what you mean by what you said at all. And if I took is the wrong way, never mind!
And focusing on what is good in our lives as you say, is of course important. All of us here, just by virtue of the fact that we obviously have internet access and therefore electricity and probably running water and heat and a roof over our heads have vastly more than hundreds of millions of people in the world have, so there's a lot to appreciate.