Well, here it is three days before Christmas, and I am desperate for a little human understanding - I have my Schnauzers and Chihuahua to provide creature comfort, it does help, but it isn't the same. I swore I wouldn't do this until after Christmas, because it just doesn't seem to be in the spirit of the holidays to moan and complain, but, alas, here I am, feeling so isolated and alone.
I have fibromyalgia and chronic migraines, along with a host of lesser issues, like IBS, asthma, reflux, gastritis, dizziness, etc. I found I could no longer deny the fibro diagnosis, when I did some research on the subject and saw I had almost every symptom on the list. And believe me, I have been in denial now for a year. This winter my symptoms have been much worse than last year, so I concede to the inevitable : I have fibromyalgia.
I have been postponing telling my family, because the family members I have confided in don't seem to take it seriously. My migraines are the most debilitating aspect of my condition. I find it almost impossible to be out amongst crowds, or noise. I can't go out in the sun without coming down with a headache, so I don't get out to family gatherings, where I can't expect everyone to tone it down for me. So, I am an outcast. It seems like my family thinks I am doing this on purpose, or that I am being too cautious, or that I don't want to visit them, but that isn't the case. You know the song "I'll be home for Christmas, if only in my dreams", That's my song. It really hits home.
So, here I am, trying to get the Christmas spirit going, making Christmas mini albums, listening to carols, and staring at the Christmas ornaments still in boxes, that I don't have the energy to decorate the tree with. My husband tries to help, but he's not much of a Christmas kind of guy, more of the bar-b-q and beer type.
This probably isn't much of an introduction, but I've given you the basics: I am a middle aged married female, who likes crafts. I have to watch what I eat because of my migraines - avoid the msg, gmo's, sugar, etc. I have tried every medication out there, Lyrica works best for me, along with Botox for my migraines. I chose shattered for my user name because that is the word that best describes what this illness has done to my life. But, I'm sure you all have felt the same way at some point along the way. It is nice to be able to share with others who face the same challenges, and who know what I am going through.
I have fibromyalgia and chronic migraines, along with a host of lesser issues, like IBS, asthma, reflux, gastritis, dizziness, etc. I found I could no longer deny the fibro diagnosis, when I did some research on the subject and saw I had almost every symptom on the list. And believe me, I have been in denial now for a year. This winter my symptoms have been much worse than last year, so I concede to the inevitable : I have fibromyalgia.
I have been postponing telling my family, because the family members I have confided in don't seem to take it seriously. My migraines are the most debilitating aspect of my condition. I find it almost impossible to be out amongst crowds, or noise. I can't go out in the sun without coming down with a headache, so I don't get out to family gatherings, where I can't expect everyone to tone it down for me. So, I am an outcast. It seems like my family thinks I am doing this on purpose, or that I am being too cautious, or that I don't want to visit them, but that isn't the case. You know the song "I'll be home for Christmas, if only in my dreams", That's my song. It really hits home.
So, here I am, trying to get the Christmas spirit going, making Christmas mini albums, listening to carols, and staring at the Christmas ornaments still in boxes, that I don't have the energy to decorate the tree with. My husband tries to help, but he's not much of a Christmas kind of guy, more of the bar-b-q and beer type.
This probably isn't much of an introduction, but I've given you the basics: I am a middle aged married female, who likes crafts. I have to watch what I eat because of my migraines - avoid the msg, gmo's, sugar, etc. I have tried every medication out there, Lyrica works best for me, along with Botox for my migraines. I chose shattered for my user name because that is the word that best describes what this illness has done to my life. But, I'm sure you all have felt the same way at some point along the way. It is nice to be able to share with others who face the same challenges, and who know what I am going through.