I'd argue that I'm suffering more than I am depressed, and I am depressed as a direct result of said suffering. Without the fibro, I'd be able to take care of most of those things. I'm a smart kid, and I know what I'm capable of. Unfortunately, the pain and fatigue+ everything else that comes with this condition just stops me from doing anything. It just HURTS. And I'm tired... I was given a lot of opportunities, none of which ai could take... because pain. I'd argue I need relief from this more than psychological help. I've been seeing psychologists since I was 5, and you can bet I've seen almost 10 different psychs+psychiatrists over the course of my life, but it always comes back to the PAIN.I'm not a therapist.
I am sorry you're suffering.
You're clearly suffering.
Fibromyalgia is hard, but depression is far worse for those that suffer from the black clouds, constant ruminating bad thoughts, feelings of hopelessness and helplessness, feelings and thoughts that life will always be bad and continue to be bad, and feelings and thoughts of "what's the point" and "why me" and "it'll never get better" and "nobody understands".
Fortunately, if you choose, there is hope and help available. Both self-help and professional help. But it comes with you first choosing you don't want to live life like this any longer.
One of the best remedies comes in the form of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy or CBT. CBT is by far the most successful way to treat depression. Best of all, CBT has shown that self-help, you helping yourself, actually is the longest lasting and most dramatic and effective treatment.
Bibliotherapy has shown extremely high success rates ("reading the help yourself and applying it").
There's a few great books out there, specifically:
Lastly, it is a choice, you have to choose that you're sick and tired of living and thinking this way. I'm guessing you are, and I don't blame you, I would be to and was myself.
- Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy
- Mind over Mood
I've been where you are and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy saved my life.
Studies have shown that it can take less than 30 days to feel better. If you're like many people that suffer from deep and long-lasting depression you can feel the best you've ever felt in a very short time. Keeping it up after that point is where the practice and dedication comes in.
Lastly, I would say that some medication to help you keep yourself above water in the meanwhile might be helpful. You can speak to your doctor about this. Just let them know how you feel, like you did above, and that should get you started in the right direction.
Thank you for your kind words. I am tired now, but I will respond to you later, pain+fatigue+fog tooP.S. At this moment, I try to fight fibro fog so writing my thoughts is quite challenging but, if I was "healthier", I would probably never try to answer you or anyone else, because suffering from FM made me wanna offer as much help as I can to everyone out there; FM made me more sympathetic and more sensitive to others' fights, less ignorant to human pain. So, give a chance to you! Sorry for the long post!