My kids are all small. I have 3 boys all under 4 years old. Honestly, I can't keep up with them. I am having a hard time potty training the oldest one, he, for the life of me, refuses to go to the potty or toilet! Sometimes midday, I just want to cry. I feel so tired, but I make sure they are well treated. They are fed, cleaned and watched at all times. I do not want to take any risks with them because they are my life. Many nights I go to bed at 5 or 6 am because of the baby or my oldest refusing to sleep, then I have to wake up 2-3 hours later with the baby and my middle son getting up for the day. I am dragging myself keeping the house clean, doing laundry and running after them. I do feel like a bad mother often, because everyone says I should be happy, I am still young and with 3 beautiful boys. I am not happy, but I wouldn't trade my children or my hardships for anything. I just wish I wasn't in pain all the time, that bending down or sitting on the floor wasn't such a hassle. I wish I had more energy so I could run around all day and play with them.