I have never dated and I am scared I am going to be living with my parents forever and never be able to have a life. Who is going to want to be with someone who can't do anything? I don't usually have breakdowns like this. I don't have anybody to go to as my parents need me to help them.
Hi cgmo-----
I completely sympathize with your situation and understand your frustration. This sucks. Fibromyalgia sucks. Covid-19 sucks. This whole year of 2020 sucks. I am sorry you are going through this.
BUT
You absolutely
cannot permit this to ruin your life, and unfortunately only you can make that difference. I know how hard it is, as I have been there. But all the energy you put into worrying about the future is wasted, because you never know what it coming next or if it will be better, worse, or neither. Don't spend your precious energy that way. Worrying is never, ever productive. It is always harmful and when you have a chronic medical condition it only makes it worse.
Put your energy instead into dealing the best you can with today...the present moment. Do what you can today to help yourself have a better today and let tomorrow take care of itself.
I strongly encourage you to read my post on "Advice for managing fibromyalgia - especially for newcomers". In it I detail a lot of things that you can do right now that will start to make things better. I have done, and still do, all of them. I didn't think I could do it at first, and resisted when a doctor told me I should. but once I started, my life started getting better. I still have fibro. I still have terrible pain at times, and underlying pain a lot of the time, but the pain is less than it was and bad days are a lot less frequent. I still can't do everything I want to do. but I don't suffer mentally as much for it and that makes a huge difference.
As for "no one will want me" that's just BS. People fall in love with people who have disabilities all the time. There are disabilities worse than yours, and people who have very supportive partners. You may find one or may not, who knows. But again, it is a waste of your energy to go around worrying about it. The better you manage your fibromyalgia yourself and the more positively you can deal with it, the more likely you are to find someone who wants to be with you. The courage it takes to live a good life when you have chronic pain is something that many people find beautiful. Take care of yourself. Hang in there.