Just wish i could lay down and die

Linda333

New member
Joined
May 4, 2019
Messages
2
Reason
DX FIBRO
Diagnosis
01/1990
Country
USA
State
Oklahoma
Hello friends. This is my first time here so forgive me if I do this wrong but I'm having one of those days where I just feel like i'd be better off if I just layed down and died. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I'm so tired of fighting it. I've had fybro for about 30 years and it just gets worse and worse. I thought it was as bad as it was going to get now that it has totally runined my life and made me wish I was dead but no....Now i'm having sleep paralysis like symptoms. Just went thru a 5 day crash where I was mostly unconsious because I couldn't stay awake. Sometimes my brain is awake but my body is asleep and paralyzed. I lay there trying to call for help but I can't. I think I'm about to give up. I can't do this much longer. I'm so sick of people who act like you aren't sick if you have fybro. It's just more than I can handle any more. I've lost everything becuase of fybro. My life is a living hell. I would just stop trying but I've allready tried that and things just get worse. My only hope is that it kills me soon so I don't have to suffer much longer.
 

mamacita85

Member
Joined
Jun 24, 2019
Messages
21
Reason
Undiagnosed
Diagnosis
06/2019
Country
Uni
State
MI
real sorry to hear, My mom used to say that same thing she was so miserable with all sorts of problems. (which now I seem to be getting) Im sure youve probly tried this since youve had it so long :( hopefullly venting helps I know it does me. I too get sick of people seems like none understands and Im relativley new to this. anyway she is on lyrics and cymbalts and says it helps her out a lot, I drink kratom tea which helps me out and a vitimin called fibro response helps with my sore hands ,elbows the joint type stuff. Itsd not perfect but I wouldnt want to be without it. I hope you find some relief soon~
 

Leigh Blyth

Member
Joined
Feb 4, 2018
Messages
15
Reason
DX FIBRO
Diagnosis
01/1978
Country
UK
State
UK
I used to eye up beams wondering if they would support my weight, but I had the feeling if I tried to hang myself my neck wouldn't snap because it was so immobile and stiff.

Driving my car towards a wall at high speed, breaking at the last minute because if I didn't die instantly it would be a whole nother lot of pain, and failure...

I've been there. It's (am I allowed to swear?) The pain and depression were overwhelming.

I learned to use my body better. The pain was due to the physical restrictions that had formed on my body over the decades, I could barely move.

It's taken 2 1/12 years to get where I am now, but slowly I've released the pain and regained my natural range of movement. It's been hard, a lot of pain to relive in order to release it.

Start focusing on your Base-Line muscles. Pelvic floor Base, rectus abdominis Line. - do a goo- gle image search.

Even if it's just lying on the floor and breathing. (I couldn't lie flat) thinking of these muscles as your central pillar of strength.

There is hope.

Scream if you can (I couldn't let go for a long time.)

Positive vibes and the pain is very real - I know.
 

Kathmandu

New member
Joined
Sep 24, 2019
Messages
2
Reason
DX FIBRO
Diagnosis
00/0000
Country
US
State
MA
You poor dear. I am now crying for you and me. I would lay down and die if I could some days.
 

Lynda 7

New member
Joined
Oct 30, 2019
Messages
2
Reason
DX FIBRO
Diagnosis
00/0000
Country
UK
State
Staffordshire
I feel so sorry for you I’m the same my life as been destroyed by fibro I’m living with someone who just doesn’t bother about what I’ve got or try to help me ,all he does is just sit there on the internet and just ignores me I have a Book that says if your living with someone like that it can make your symtoms worse the trouble is I have no one I can turn to no family or friends as such either I worry all the time as well about my situation
 
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