- Feb 28, 2015
I'm 24 and full of passion. But since the pain started, my future is a blur. I don't know if I can even get through school. I know I'm smart enough to do well, but I never know what to expect. I'm happy to at the very least, finally have been diagnosed. Now I am struggling with fighting the thoughts that I am lazy, irresponsible and worthless. It's hard for me to do anything right now. Putting my clothes on in the morning is a battle. I can keep a positive attitude in social and work environments, but lately I don't even have the energy to keep up, so I just stay home. It's also taking a huge toll on my relationship. I'm rather irritable, but do my best to never project my pain onto my SO. I don't know how to get my sex drive back, I don't know how to explain how much pain I am in. He says he can tell it truly affects my life, but I can't help but think that in a few months he will GTFO. My parents don't take me seriously, so I generally hide my pain from them. I just want to be successful, but I don't know if I can like this. Maybe that makes me weak, I don't know. All I know is that my entire body is in excruciating, deep pain and that everything makes me short of breath. Please, share your secrets.. How do you live? How do you obtain and maintain success when fibro episodes come and go?