Thanks ladies! It means so much to hear words of encouragement rather than put downs! It's sad that strangers have more compassion than my own family. I've been told it's a made up disease that doctors diagnose when they cannot find a reason for pain. What about my severe stenosis? I can't fake an MRI! Yes it's about money too....they are used to me giving so much, helping with everything, clothes for the kids, car repairs, footing the bill for a Confirmation or Communion party etc, well my mess are very expensive, especially the Cymbalta, and the Valium. The Valium is not covered at all and the Cymbalta is a nightmare because I'm on 90 mg and they don't make a 90mg capsule of that, it's 30 and 60 and in January I'll pay roughly 230$ EACH for the Cymbalta alone, then in February it goes down a bit, March a bit lower etc until I'm paying about 209$ a month for both, then here comes January and it starts all over again. We cannot get any help because we have too much money so we just have to pay. I take Norco and it's cheap as can be, I only pay 7$ for 90 pills! I take I think 7 pills all together, plus my co pays at my Doctors (PCP, Neurologist, Pain Management and Psychiatrist) and the medical bills from the shots I get....I have to pay a portion of that too. My psychiatrist is a 40$ copay alone! Wouldn't you think one of my nieces that love me SO much would offer one time, just one time, to come over and vacuum or do a few loads of laundry? After all I've done for them? Well they do not! I get so hurt and feel like I was being used. Ugh.