last year i had work exemption for food stamps. this year my doctor decided she "wouldnt lie" and marked that i could work with restrictions- the "restrictions" just being an attached functional capacity report i should've never had done because all it does is show i dont have hard measurable physical symptoms, just a lack of endurance.
so the last month, to keep my food stamps, ive been working at a soup kitchen. it's a light job. 3 hour days, 3 days a week, half the time is sitting and resting because there's more people than work. aside from the fact that the rest of the people working there hate the homeless that come in and talk about and to them like they're animals, and that it only pays "keep your food stamps" + $60/month, it's a "perfect" job.
but despite all the rest, despite all the days off, despite the fact i get through the days fine with just slightly sore feet, there's been a separate level of building pain and fatigue that never seems to go down.
i just got off a 3 day weekend and i was barely able to move around the whole time. i did all my yoga every day and it didnt help much. im going in to work now and im so tired and scared of the pain thats going to happen.
ive been thinking about getting a skin biopsy done for small fiber neuropathy, which apparently can be a quantifiable marker for fibro and other issues, and while im there i could talk to my doctor about how im faring, but i feel like it wouldnt do anything. im already in contract for a year of work. i think they'd just yank my food stamps if i proved unable to fulfill it one way or another.
a side note is that id really prefer to get a different doctor - one that doesnt think considering my limitations is "lying" - but the system they're in wont let me do that unless i get signed permission from her, which is horrifying if you think about it for more than a second.
so the last month, to keep my food stamps, ive been working at a soup kitchen. it's a light job. 3 hour days, 3 days a week, half the time is sitting and resting because there's more people than work. aside from the fact that the rest of the people working there hate the homeless that come in and talk about and to them like they're animals, and that it only pays "keep your food stamps" + $60/month, it's a "perfect" job.
but despite all the rest, despite all the days off, despite the fact i get through the days fine with just slightly sore feet, there's been a separate level of building pain and fatigue that never seems to go down.
i just got off a 3 day weekend and i was barely able to move around the whole time. i did all my yoga every day and it didnt help much. im going in to work now and im so tired and scared of the pain thats going to happen.
ive been thinking about getting a skin biopsy done for small fiber neuropathy, which apparently can be a quantifiable marker for fibro and other issues, and while im there i could talk to my doctor about how im faring, but i feel like it wouldnt do anything. im already in contract for a year of work. i think they'd just yank my food stamps if i proved unable to fulfill it one way or another.
a side note is that id really prefer to get a different doctor - one that doesnt think considering my limitations is "lying" - but the system they're in wont let me do that unless i get signed permission from her, which is horrifying if you think about it for more than a second.