That’s hard for you. Sorry you’re having to deal with that. I managed to get an appointment with a rheumatologist today actually. Quite surprised I managed to find one during lockdown but let’s hope she can help at least figure out what’s going on.
Oh my gosh, I have the same wish at times (although of course no one really wants to do without a big toe). One of mine goes into this weird thing when I get up from sitting or lying down. It feels fine until I start to walk, then is terribly painful at the point where my toes bend as I step. Usually it is gone in ten minutes or so but makes walking very hard at first. Doesn't happen all the time, but is excruciating when it does!My big toe is worst. Some days I would get the axe and chop it off.
My physio called it "Charlie Chaplin-position" when she saw it, cos he also turns his feet outwards. But he bent his knees, I don't. Best start are the ballet feet positions. I started off using the first position. That still works best when lying in bed, face down (for thigh pain), but 2nd works then too. When standing I now usually use the fifth position, if I don't feel safe standing, the fourth (legs apart). The main point is I turn the legs outwards until I feel exactly the tendons being stretched which are causing the stiffness etc., and only as far as nothing cramps, and only for 10-20 seconds. That's hips, knees, ankles and feet all at once. Plus arms (shoulders, elbows, wrists and a bit hands): I started with arms down, turning them incl. palms outwards and inwards as far as comfy. Now I've found that putting them up and the same stretches my back too. And makes me look more elegant like a ballet dancer (did that as a kid ). I've seen that arm position called "open fifth" on one image for kid's ballet, but can't find the name elsewhere, altho it is used a lot in ballet(s).) Additionally I stretch back and neck backwards. I started with switching between outwards and inwards, but outwards is more effective. As I've had difficulty sitting (back) and standing (thighs) while working, I've started using it while standing, every few minutes for 10 seconds. Sometimes I stand in the fifth position I've found it extremely effective. Of course: only go as far as it feels good.Not quite sure what it is your do .can u explain it again.don’t wanna hurt myself.