cmetryme
Extremely helpful member
- Joined
- Nov 3, 2013
- Messages
- 1,030
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 03/2008
- Country
- US
- State
- TX
well, im on an ungodly number of days and nights of pain levels off the chart. i dont even want to could in my log book. im livening with level 7/8/9 pain level everyday.
im really getting tired of the crying. even a nine hour drive to the mountains again is looking better to me.
my legs arms hands and feet are hurting so bad. the burning from the lupus is just killing me. my broken rib from the fall just keeps reminding me that its there with every breath and every turn i make with my body.
im taking way more of the it can kill me drugs than the doctor wants me to take. even 5 mins for low pain would be nice. im getting to the point where i wish that the drug would take me so this can all come to an end. i know it wont because im on such a low dose.
im really trying to keep it together here. it's getting so hard to do so.
im not even looking forward to going to AZ in May anymore.
things will get better i keep saying that to myself. im thinking one time i say it i will actually believe it.
the pain was so bad today i went fishing to get on top of the water as it does reduce the metal reaction and some of my pain. reduces the crying too. not the lupus pain at all.
i made it 3 hours and i never stopped moaning from the pain.
im trying to do every thing i can to make it through each day.
some days this just sucks!
may you all have better days than ive been having.
im go back to crying now..sorry if i upset you folks with my vent. i try to show you folks you can make it and sometimes i even can't make it.
im really getting tired of the crying. even a nine hour drive to the mountains again is looking better to me.
my legs arms hands and feet are hurting so bad. the burning from the lupus is just killing me. my broken rib from the fall just keeps reminding me that its there with every breath and every turn i make with my body.
im taking way more of the it can kill me drugs than the doctor wants me to take. even 5 mins for low pain would be nice. im getting to the point where i wish that the drug would take me so this can all come to an end. i know it wont because im on such a low dose.
im really trying to keep it together here. it's getting so hard to do so.
im not even looking forward to going to AZ in May anymore.
things will get better i keep saying that to myself. im thinking one time i say it i will actually believe it.
the pain was so bad today i went fishing to get on top of the water as it does reduce the metal reaction and some of my pain. reduces the crying too. not the lupus pain at all.
i made it 3 hours and i never stopped moaning from the pain.
im trying to do every thing i can to make it through each day.
some days this just sucks!
may you all have better days than ive been having.
im go back to crying now..sorry if i upset you folks with my vent. i try to show you folks you can make it and sometimes i even can't make it.