SallySour
Member
- Joined
- Jul 22, 2022
- Messages
- 12
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 09/2022
- Country
- IT
- State
- IT
Hello,
Next Monday (on my birthday) I begin a 3 month internship in a big company near me.
It's the third internship I begin and end without a job offer. It pays more than half of a normal paycheck so it's good for where I am.
That being said I am scared.
It's an office and reception job, a lot of interactions, phone calls, documents.
I have fibro and a rheumatic disease not better specified (they'll give me the diagnosis on the 15th) so I'm dealing with pain, a lot of pain, low BP, gi issues and of course A LOT of brain fog.
My bank account after the doctor appointment on the 15th will be empty so I need this job.
I just upped my Zoloft adding an additional 50mg to give me energy.
I honestly lied at the interview. Not about the source of my issues but on the amount of trouble I have working. I had to to be hired, I'd prefer not to lie but no one would hire me.
I'm not just scared of not being able to pay rent, my parents are poor and ill and divorced, not really able to support me anymore. Also I know I'll be very depressed if/when I will let down my employer.
I guess it's just a rant.
A gentle hug to everyone.
Next Monday (on my birthday) I begin a 3 month internship in a big company near me.
It's the third internship I begin and end without a job offer. It pays more than half of a normal paycheck so it's good for where I am.
That being said I am scared.
It's an office and reception job, a lot of interactions, phone calls, documents.
I have fibro and a rheumatic disease not better specified (they'll give me the diagnosis on the 15th) so I'm dealing with pain, a lot of pain, low BP, gi issues and of course A LOT of brain fog.
My bank account after the doctor appointment on the 15th will be empty so I need this job.
I just upped my Zoloft adding an additional 50mg to give me energy.
I honestly lied at the interview. Not about the source of my issues but on the amount of trouble I have working. I had to to be hired, I'd prefer not to lie but no one would hire me.
I'm not just scared of not being able to pay rent, my parents are poor and ill and divorced, not really able to support me anymore. Also I know I'll be very depressed if/when I will let down my employer.
I guess it's just a rant.
A gentle hug to everyone.