Diamondgirl
New member
- Joined
- Dec 23, 2013
- Messages
- 6
- Diagnosis
- 09/2009
- Country
- US
- State
- NM
My pain and suffering has been a secret. Few people know what I am and have gone through. I have sucked it up for years and have spent time alone crying only to wipe my eyes and pretend that all is well. Because I try so hard, you'd never know that I have fibromyalgia. Most people don't know. If they did, they'd question it anyway. I guess that my silence really just saves me grief. If I talk to my family about it, it is too uncomfortable for them to hear how much suffering I have/am enduring, so I find myself consoling them instead of the other way around. So, I just keep quiet. One of the things I do is avoid spending too much time in social situations. I can't keep up with it. I work (still) and take care of my family and lots of times that is way more than I can do, but I do it. I'm sure lots of folks think I'm a bit_h, or at least cranky. Being in a good mood is not the easiest with this. One thing I have learned is that you can never judge a book by its cover. There is no way to tell what someone is going through in their personal lives and this illness has taught me to not judge people, but to be kind to them even if they can not find it themselves to be kind to me. My secret is out...I am suffering, I am scared, I am tired. I wish I was also done with it. But, I know that this is a marathon. I just don't want it to be. I shocks me that I have been chronically ill for almost 10 years! WTF!?
OK...got that off my chest. I DO have a lot of hope and hope is what keeps me going. That and I love my husband and kids! They'll never really know what I am going through and quite frankly I don't want them to. This is just too much so why share it with them? OK...thanks for letting me throw a "pitty party".
OK...got that off my chest. I DO have a lot of hope and hope is what keeps me going. That and I love my husband and kids! They'll never really know what I am going through and quite frankly I don't want them to. This is just too much so why share it with them? OK...thanks for letting me throw a "pitty party".