Coriiasaurus
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- Jun 24, 2014
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- DX FIBRO
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- 01/2012
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I rarely ever need to vent like this, but tonight has just been so frustrating. My whole entire DAY has been frustrating.
Normally, I can deal. Take my meds and chill out when I'm having days like this. Sleep a lot, etc. Well, tonight I wanted to work. I'm a webcam model and can work at any time, so that works really well with my body and whatever it decides to act like.
But, today? Not at all. Not only did I wake up in a terrible fog, but I was tired, weighed down, sluggish, just everything. My fiance took his kids to the park and I went to a friend's house so I wouldn't be home alone while I felt like shit. I helped her clean a bit and my head cleared up a little..
Until I got back home. Migraine time! This is a new development for me. I've always had headaches and I attribute it to all of the medications I take. If I don't take them at the same time every morning, I get a headache. Easy enough. But, for whatever reason, I've been getting migraines. So instead of eating dinner with everyone, I got to eat dinner in bed, pop a pain pill and go to sleep.
Now that I'm awake, I've had to take another pain pill, a Xanax to calm the hell down, and now I'm just angry because my head doesn't hurt anymore, but I have horrible pains in my hand and my collar bone on the left side. NEVER have my flare ups been in my hand. It feels like someone is stabbing me through the skin between my thumb and first finger with a butcher knife. I REALLY DULL DAMN KNIFE. I've never had such a HUGE pain in such a TINY spot that was SO debilitating.
End vent for a second, as I have a question -- is there anyone else who gets flare ups in their chest and left arm/shoulder/collar bone/hand and freaks out? Because I do. I always think I'm having a damn heart attack. I've been checked time and time again. EKGs, D-Dimers, xrays, you name it. I have established with my doctor that yes, these are flare ups because my biggest trigger point is my chest, but it's still scary! Especially when it spirals out of control like it is right now!
Currently, my left hand is killing me, my right shoulder blade is throbbing, my arm will get a jolt from the pain in my hand, and my left collar bone hurts. I'm normally not one to need to vent, but tonight this is just ticking me off to no end. Half of me wants to just chill and half of me wants to go to the hospital -- AGAIN. What will they find? Nothing. Like they always do.
I think I've gotten to a breaking point. The headaches, the stress, the fatigue, the pain. Tonight, I just can't. It's like if it's not one thing, it's another. UGH!
(Thank you for reading my jumbled rant.)
Normally, I can deal. Take my meds and chill out when I'm having days like this. Sleep a lot, etc. Well, tonight I wanted to work. I'm a webcam model and can work at any time, so that works really well with my body and whatever it decides to act like.
But, today? Not at all. Not only did I wake up in a terrible fog, but I was tired, weighed down, sluggish, just everything. My fiance took his kids to the park and I went to a friend's house so I wouldn't be home alone while I felt like shit. I helped her clean a bit and my head cleared up a little..
Until I got back home. Migraine time! This is a new development for me. I've always had headaches and I attribute it to all of the medications I take. If I don't take them at the same time every morning, I get a headache. Easy enough. But, for whatever reason, I've been getting migraines. So instead of eating dinner with everyone, I got to eat dinner in bed, pop a pain pill and go to sleep.
Now that I'm awake, I've had to take another pain pill, a Xanax to calm the hell down, and now I'm just angry because my head doesn't hurt anymore, but I have horrible pains in my hand and my collar bone on the left side. NEVER have my flare ups been in my hand. It feels like someone is stabbing me through the skin between my thumb and first finger with a butcher knife. I REALLY DULL DAMN KNIFE. I've never had such a HUGE pain in such a TINY spot that was SO debilitating.
End vent for a second, as I have a question -- is there anyone else who gets flare ups in their chest and left arm/shoulder/collar bone/hand and freaks out? Because I do. I always think I'm having a damn heart attack. I've been checked time and time again. EKGs, D-Dimers, xrays, you name it. I have established with my doctor that yes, these are flare ups because my biggest trigger point is my chest, but it's still scary! Especially when it spirals out of control like it is right now!
Currently, my left hand is killing me, my right shoulder blade is throbbing, my arm will get a jolt from the pain in my hand, and my left collar bone hurts. I'm normally not one to need to vent, but tonight this is just ticking me off to no end. Half of me wants to just chill and half of me wants to go to the hospital -- AGAIN. What will they find? Nothing. Like they always do.
I think I've gotten to a breaking point. The headaches, the stress, the fatigue, the pain. Tonight, I just can't. It's like if it's not one thing, it's another. UGH!
(Thank you for reading my jumbled rant.)