FiGhTn4LiFe
Active member
- Joined
- Sep 12, 2013
- Messages
- 44
- Diagnosis
- 09/2006
- Country
- US
- State
- PA
I am sooooo FRUSTRATED I just want to scream from the roof tops.
I WANT OUT FROM UNDER ALL THIS CRAP! I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired and I know every person on here understands what I am saying. (She says with tears streaming down her face.)
None of these meds work and they just make me MORE tired, as if that's even possible. I wish I had all of the $ I have spent and that's with insurance. My co-pays alone are killing me. I don't know how you folks do it with little or no income/insurance. I guess I should be grateful, but right now I am to busy being absolutely miserable.
I want to quit taking them but know what I'm in for trying to do that. Another whole set of issues for God knows how long until they get out of my system. I should just check myself into rehab for a while.
My Dad always said that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Well, this problem isn't temporary Dad. I have to live like this for the rest of my life and sometimes it all just seems so pointless. Yes, I know everything happens for a reason and we are not given more than we can handle, but really, seriously, how much 'character' does one person need? (I'm not suicidal, please do not worry. Have I had ideations, yes, I have. I don't think a person can live like this for very long and not, however, I could never do that to my beautiful family. I know they need me and I them.)
I'm just fed up. These drugs are messing with me and this is typically my worst time of the year. I seriously can't feel worse without them, can I?
Thanks so much for listening to me rant. I seriously hope to one day be a nice, positive person who can come on here and actually help people.
Right now though, not so much.
I WANT OUT FROM UNDER ALL THIS CRAP! I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired and I know every person on here understands what I am saying. (She says with tears streaming down her face.)
None of these meds work and they just make me MORE tired, as if that's even possible. I wish I had all of the $ I have spent and that's with insurance. My co-pays alone are killing me. I don't know how you folks do it with little or no income/insurance. I guess I should be grateful, but right now I am to busy being absolutely miserable.
I want to quit taking them but know what I'm in for trying to do that. Another whole set of issues for God knows how long until they get out of my system. I should just check myself into rehab for a while.
My Dad always said that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Well, this problem isn't temporary Dad. I have to live like this for the rest of my life and sometimes it all just seems so pointless. Yes, I know everything happens for a reason and we are not given more than we can handle, but really, seriously, how much 'character' does one person need? (I'm not suicidal, please do not worry. Have I had ideations, yes, I have. I don't think a person can live like this for very long and not, however, I could never do that to my beautiful family. I know they need me and I them.)
I'm just fed up. These drugs are messing with me and this is typically my worst time of the year. I seriously can't feel worse without them, can I?
Thanks so much for listening to me rant. I seriously hope to one day be a nice, positive person who can come on here and actually help people.
Right now though, not so much.