KarenH
Active member
- Joined
- Mar 26, 2016
- Messages
- 30
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 01/2000
- Country
- US
- State
- TX
Hi guys!!
I just had a huge fight with my mom. My parents are paying for everything for me bc I can't work. I'm waiting for disability but it's going to still be awhile. But living off of them is just getting to me. I can't take it anymore. I just simply asked my mom a question about the difference between an iPad and a tablet. I seriously am computer illiterate. I found a tablet for $40. I didn't know I had to pay a monthly fee for it though. Once she told me that I decided I didn't need it. But she decided she needed to go off on me about everything she has spent her money on over the last year for me. Just bc I merely thought about spending $40! I already feel bad enough. I tell her all the time how bad I feel and I reiterated that tonight;that I feel like a burden, a failure and that I'll never be able to get myself out of this mess. i did tell her how much I appreciate how much they have done for me and I'd never be able to repay them. She didn't have one supportive word to say to me. She just kept defending herself and blaming me for what she said. I asked her wouldn't she rather me ask her first than just spend the money then call and need to ask for more money? Well, if she keeps making these snide remarks I'm going to be afraid to say anything to her and instead of asking questions about things and finding out the right options I could end up wasting a lot of money! She ignored all of it, just kept defending everything she said.
My therapist has kept telling me she is a dry well and to stop going to her for water (emotional support). But I keep going there. I know this is why I grew up so f*ed up and married someone just like her. Then ended up abusing pain medication to cover up my emotional pain. I had so much built up by tat point I had to deal with it somehow and I chose a very destructive way.
Anyway, I just needed to vent and if anyone knows of any magical way I can get out from under my parents hand, please let me know!!!
I just had a huge fight with my mom. My parents are paying for everything for me bc I can't work. I'm waiting for disability but it's going to still be awhile. But living off of them is just getting to me. I can't take it anymore. I just simply asked my mom a question about the difference between an iPad and a tablet. I seriously am computer illiterate. I found a tablet for $40. I didn't know I had to pay a monthly fee for it though. Once she told me that I decided I didn't need it. But she decided she needed to go off on me about everything she has spent her money on over the last year for me. Just bc I merely thought about spending $40! I already feel bad enough. I tell her all the time how bad I feel and I reiterated that tonight;that I feel like a burden, a failure and that I'll never be able to get myself out of this mess. i did tell her how much I appreciate how much they have done for me and I'd never be able to repay them. She didn't have one supportive word to say to me. She just kept defending herself and blaming me for what she said. I asked her wouldn't she rather me ask her first than just spend the money then call and need to ask for more money? Well, if she keeps making these snide remarks I'm going to be afraid to say anything to her and instead of asking questions about things and finding out the right options I could end up wasting a lot of money! She ignored all of it, just kept defending everything she said.
My therapist has kept telling me she is a dry well and to stop going to her for water (emotional support). But I keep going there. I know this is why I grew up so f*ed up and married someone just like her. Then ended up abusing pain medication to cover up my emotional pain. I had so much built up by tat point I had to deal with it somehow and I chose a very destructive way.
Anyway, I just needed to vent and if anyone knows of any magical way I can get out from under my parents hand, please let me know!!!