Alanna
New member
- Joined
- Mar 5, 2014
- Messages
- 5
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 12/2013
- Country
- US
- State
- Connecticut
I work as a high school teacher. I teach four classes, three of which are freshmen. Then I coach for two and a half hours in the afternoon. In all I spend 11-12 hours at work every day. When I mention that it is stressful or hard or tiring, I frequently get asked if I think I'm more tired than other people. My dean of faculty (who I have to meet with weekly because they think I need "watching" Long story, I definitely don't need to be babysat..) keeps asking if I think I really am more tired or in more pain, blah, blah than others. It's like she's saying "Are you making it up or just a baby?" It also drives me nuts when I say things like "I can't wait for this week to end, I'm falling down on my feet." and I have colleagues say, "Yeah I'm exhausted too." And while I'm sure they really are, teaching is rough sometimes, it's still hard to believe that they are as tired and worn out as I am and that they just handle it better.
I feel like I'm constantly doubting whether I'm actually hurting or tired or exhausted because I have no specific way of saying "I'm sick!" Last night I got home and I was so tired and stressed out and feeling depressed that I couldn't get it together to eat dinner. Which is BAD because I am pretty much in desperate need of food and gaining weight. I feel bad about myself that I can't just pull it together and take care of myself right. And then I get angry because I really think my job is making my life way worse. I just need a break so badly!
I feel like I'm constantly doubting whether I'm actually hurting or tired or exhausted because I have no specific way of saying "I'm sick!" Last night I got home and I was so tired and stressed out and feeling depressed that I couldn't get it together to eat dinner. Which is BAD because I am pretty much in desperate need of food and gaining weight. I feel bad about myself that I can't just pull it together and take care of myself right. And then I get angry because I really think my job is making my life way worse. I just need a break so badly!