LilyBean
New member
- Joined
- May 7, 2015
- Messages
- 5
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 09/2011
- Country
- US
- State
- Iowa
Hi,
My name is Kim and I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia in 2011.
I'm seriously panicking about work at the moment and could use some advice. The people in my department know I have fibromyalgia. They don't, however, know the extent. They know I miss days because I'm in some pain and that's it. There's SO much more... I'm having trouble with my memory and vision. I can't focus and my concentration is shot. I feel sick and exhausted ALL the time. It's really wearing me down.
The focus/concentration/memory thing is the big issue right now. My friends and family just laugh it off when I mention problems I'm having, but it's not funny. It's embarrassing. I feel like huge chunks of my vocabulary are just gone. And I actually forget words AS I'm about to say them. I open my mouth and the word is just suddenly gone. Has this happened to anyone else?
It's a huge problem at work. Things have become extremely difficult as my work environment has become more fast paced. I didn't want to lose my job, so I tried to keep it all hidden. Tried to keep up. Recently, I was given a very large project and a very short time frame. I had to know I couldn't do it, but in my head I was thinking "this is something I used to do, so I should be able to do it now." Wrong. I missed my deadline. It was not pretty. Not knowing what else to do, I told my boss ALL that was going on. I figured, at that point, I was either getting fired for incompetence, or for confessing to having trouble doing my job. I had nothing to lose.
She seemed very understanding and split the project between three of us. My stress eased a little. The very next day, she removed me from the project completely. She said it had to be accurate and couldn't risk me making mistakes. I was crushed. In my entire career, I've NEVER been removed from a project. I feel like a complete failure. A stupid failure. I'm seriously depressed and my stress level is back up through the roof.
My hiding days are over. HR now knows. But, again, I downplayed and didn't tell them the extent of things. I'm stressing myself out, and that only makes the problem worse. I'm exhausted, in pain, frustrated and confused. Something needs to give, but I can't afford to lose my job. I don't know what to do.
Has anyone else had trouble at work? What did you do? How have things worked out? I'm open to any and all advice.
I apologize for the long ramble. Thanks for listening!
My name is Kim and I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia in 2011.
I'm seriously panicking about work at the moment and could use some advice. The people in my department know I have fibromyalgia. They don't, however, know the extent. They know I miss days because I'm in some pain and that's it. There's SO much more... I'm having trouble with my memory and vision. I can't focus and my concentration is shot. I feel sick and exhausted ALL the time. It's really wearing me down.
The focus/concentration/memory thing is the big issue right now. My friends and family just laugh it off when I mention problems I'm having, but it's not funny. It's embarrassing. I feel like huge chunks of my vocabulary are just gone. And I actually forget words AS I'm about to say them. I open my mouth and the word is just suddenly gone. Has this happened to anyone else?
It's a huge problem at work. Things have become extremely difficult as my work environment has become more fast paced. I didn't want to lose my job, so I tried to keep it all hidden. Tried to keep up. Recently, I was given a very large project and a very short time frame. I had to know I couldn't do it, but in my head I was thinking "this is something I used to do, so I should be able to do it now." Wrong. I missed my deadline. It was not pretty. Not knowing what else to do, I told my boss ALL that was going on. I figured, at that point, I was either getting fired for incompetence, or for confessing to having trouble doing my job. I had nothing to lose.
She seemed very understanding and split the project between three of us. My stress eased a little. The very next day, she removed me from the project completely. She said it had to be accurate and couldn't risk me making mistakes. I was crushed. In my entire career, I've NEVER been removed from a project. I feel like a complete failure. A stupid failure. I'm seriously depressed and my stress level is back up through the roof.
My hiding days are over. HR now knows. But, again, I downplayed and didn't tell them the extent of things. I'm stressing myself out, and that only makes the problem worse. I'm exhausted, in pain, frustrated and confused. Something needs to give, but I can't afford to lose my job. I don't know what to do.
Has anyone else had trouble at work? What did you do? How have things worked out? I'm open to any and all advice.
I apologize for the long ramble. Thanks for listening!