Lyndsey
Active member
- Joined
- Dec 18, 2014
- Messages
- 89
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 04/2014
- Country
- CA
- State
- British Columbia
Hi everyone...this is my second post on a similar subject but wasn't sure if I should continue with the same thread or start a new one...
I was approved for disability about 2 months ago, and have been off work from my fibro/CFS for the past 8 months. It took me a very long time to make the decision to stop work, I was stubborn for a long time out of fear of what people would think of me. I am feeling extremely stressed about it for a number of reasons. I am in a position that i never in my entire life thought that I would ever be in. Being of work is always making me worry what people think, as with this illness it is invisible to the people around me and no one actually understands the amount of pain I am in on a daily basis and just how much of a struggle it actually is.
The disability people contact me frequently and ask routine questions. This stresses me out and I think makes me in turn feel worse. I am scared of so many things, like will they suddenly cut me off and force me back to work? can I go out and do things on days when I am feeling ok and can actually do something enjoyable other than sit inside on my couch in pain?
I am scared of what they would think or do. Again I will reiterate I am not a lazy person, and have always pushed through my days, and faked how I feel, put on a smile and grin and bear it. I just dont think I could go back to work right now if anything happened with the disability because of how bad it is, and I am scared to death for financial reasons if that were the case. My husband doesn't make enough money to support both of us right now, and I make a good living with my current career.
I have tried so many things for my fibro in the last two years, and nothing has helped yet. It feels like it is just getting worse.
Anyone else in a similar situation or advice on what I should do or think...
thanks,
Lyndsey
I was approved for disability about 2 months ago, and have been off work from my fibro/CFS for the past 8 months. It took me a very long time to make the decision to stop work, I was stubborn for a long time out of fear of what people would think of me. I am feeling extremely stressed about it for a number of reasons. I am in a position that i never in my entire life thought that I would ever be in. Being of work is always making me worry what people think, as with this illness it is invisible to the people around me and no one actually understands the amount of pain I am in on a daily basis and just how much of a struggle it actually is.
The disability people contact me frequently and ask routine questions. This stresses me out and I think makes me in turn feel worse. I am scared of so many things, like will they suddenly cut me off and force me back to work? can I go out and do things on days when I am feeling ok and can actually do something enjoyable other than sit inside on my couch in pain?
I am scared of what they would think or do. Again I will reiterate I am not a lazy person, and have always pushed through my days, and faked how I feel, put on a smile and grin and bear it. I just dont think I could go back to work right now if anything happened with the disability because of how bad it is, and I am scared to death for financial reasons if that were the case. My husband doesn't make enough money to support both of us right now, and I make a good living with my current career.
I have tried so many things for my fibro in the last two years, and nothing has helped yet. It feels like it is just getting worse.
Anyone else in a similar situation or advice on what I should do or think...
thanks,
Lyndsey