TSwanson
New member
- Joined
- Jun 12, 2016
- Messages
- 1
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 05/2016
- Country
- US
- State
- Kansas
Being recently diagnosed, I'm trying so hard to live my life like a normal person my age would. But it's exhausting. I just want to be better. And pretending to be better just sucks. It's like you create this facade of yourself and you're freaking superwoman and you honestly start to believe that you're normal and you can do everything you want to. And then it hits you, that heavy feeling at night when you don't desire to speak or move. When you're so frustrated with life that you just become silent. When you're just tired. Of grieving your own being. Of not being the you that you want to be. This process is horrific -- especially when you can't find people your own age that can relate to you. How am I supposed to let go of myself? How am I supposed to mourn the loss of me? It's such a hard thing to do. :-(