Hi Jasgal,
Welcome. I am sorry that you are hurting so badly. This is a good place to be. Its safe and everyone I have met has been so very supportive.
Here are a couple of alternative ideas to narcotics:
My absolutely, positively favorite way to help myself hurt less is by doing gentle exercises in a heated pool. It is 92 degrees and like wrapping up in a big, hot, wet blanket. I learned the exercises from a physical therapist who specialized in aqua therapy.
Another idea I have, I got from my niece's friend. They both have Fibro and lots of other autoimmune diseases as well. Anyway, I was told to try FibroResponse. It is found in health food stores. I haven't tried it yet but she swears by it.
There are a lot of supplements that you can take to help too. If you don't have a rheumatologist yet, get your gen. practitioner to give you a referral. Then ask the rheumy what they supplements and the dosage they suggest for YOU.
I just received a steroid shot about 3 weeks ago, I think, and its still helping with the pain
So there's an idea but the insomnia from it is crazy!
I use 5mg of Melatonin to help me sleep at night as well. You would want to figure out a dosage with your doctor though if you chose to go that route.
I also used to go to a psychologist who helped me process all kinds of shtuff in my head. I need to go to one again, if only to give my family and friends a break from my whining.
I hope this helps.
Big hugs about your particular family members. That is not easy. I have experienced that as well and had to keep reminding myself that Addiction is also a disease and one that our multiple types of media glamorize; esp. advertisements and Hollywood. Saying that, I know it is a tremendous amount of stress.
Oh, so I remembered a couple more things that may help reduce pain, tension and stress. Hot showers, tub baths, and foot baths with Lavender Epsom's Salts and Clary Sage oil.
Best wishes for a peaceful night