Akshunhiro
Member
- Joined
- Jun 21, 2017
- Messages
- 16
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 04/2012
- Country
- AU
- State
- NSW
I don't know if this relates to fibro, maybe indirectly, but I need to vent. I just had one of the worst days of my whole life. In addition to fibro and ankylosing spondylitis, I also suffer from GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disease) which causes me to get nutcracker esophageal spasms. I've mentioned these before but for those who didn't read that particular post, these spasms occur just under the tip of the sternum and they feel like a heart attack or a bad leg cramp in your chest. They can last between minutes and hours. Utter agony.
A few days ago, I had one that lasted 4 hours and I had thought that was a nightmare. Man, I was so wrong about that.
Yesterday, I had a series of these spasms that lasted for about 15-16 hours. I was begging to die and it just kept going on and on and on and my whole world was just one long excruciating torture session with not one second of relief. I suspect that the fibro might be amplifying the pain because my whole family gets these spasms and they don't get hit nearly as hard as I do.
I'm so incredibly tired. I feel like I've been hit by a tour bus at full occupancy. And I just keep wondering why all these things are happening to me. I don't deserve them. I'm a good person. Why is my whole life about pain?
I took a very painful trip to the doctor yesterday and they gave me calcium channel blockers, which may help. The truth is that it's a rare condition and no one really knows why they happen or what causes it and they only have half an idea of how to treat them. The medications don't help everyone and they're not even sure of how they do help. I feel hopeless right now. Like I don't want to go on anymore.
A few days ago, I had one that lasted 4 hours and I had thought that was a nightmare. Man, I was so wrong about that.
Yesterday, I had a series of these spasms that lasted for about 15-16 hours. I was begging to die and it just kept going on and on and on and my whole world was just one long excruciating torture session with not one second of relief. I suspect that the fibro might be amplifying the pain because my whole family gets these spasms and they don't get hit nearly as hard as I do.
I'm so incredibly tired. I feel like I've been hit by a tour bus at full occupancy. And I just keep wondering why all these things are happening to me. I don't deserve them. I'm a good person. Why is my whole life about pain?
I took a very painful trip to the doctor yesterday and they gave me calcium channel blockers, which may help. The truth is that it's a rare condition and no one really knows why they happen or what causes it and they only have half an idea of how to treat them. The medications don't help everyone and they're not even sure of how they do help. I feel hopeless right now. Like I don't want to go on anymore.