Here we go with 1st part. I was planning to edit my first message however, apparently this forum doesn't allow us to edit our messages ?
Mild symptoms in teenage:
I always have been a person who spends almost his whole time on computer. And you know such motionless living style just makes symptoms of fibromyalgia worse. In my teen ages, I used to experience very mild pains especially at times I don’t go school or outside, and stay at home for a few weeks. Also sleep disturbances caused by these mild symptoms. And another recognizable issue was erectile dysfunction which only appears with pains and then once I turn back to active life all use to disappear.
A Decision in 2018 almost ruined my life: “Workout”:
2018 was the year I graduated from university and it was time to change my miserable life style. Even though I was 1.80 cm tall, I was like only 58-60 kg. Everyone around me used to tell me I am too thin, I should gain weight. However, when I gain weight only my belly gets bigger and my arms and legs still stays thin. So, gaining weight just makes me uglier. Apparently, the solution was to work out! Even though I tried to make some muscles by working out during my university studies, it didn’t work well. But this time I was decisive. I had to make my weak body to seem muscular and strong therefore, I could lose my virginity after age of 25! I started working out, real hard. Also, by using some supplements: WHEY powder and creatine but nothing dangerous like steroids or hormones. And also, I just minimized, consumption of sugar and fat too. Basically, I started
consuming almost only protein in order the have a muscular body!
What a mistake. In very short time like 2-3 months, I was able to achieve 15 pull-ups and more than 30 push-ups. I was strong enough; my body was like stone but still my body was not appearing so muscular I believe due to fibromyalgia. And then first symptom came out.
Numbness with my left leg. Then I saw doctor first time in 2018. He recommended me to stop workout, not to walk a lot but also not to stay completely motionless. Prescribed me gabapentin (
No never use this unless you really have to.), B12 vitamin even though b12 level in my blood was above the highest recommended level. As gabapentin just blocks your brain to feel pain, it worked but I didn’t see any benefit of b12
in the beginning.
I have seen many doctors:
So, after the first symptom, numbness with my left leg, severity of the symptom has increased over time. It turned into pain, and started spreading to all other muscles. Then I started seeing many and many different doctors. Many blood tests as well as infection tests, auto-immune tests are made, MRIs are taken, EMGs are done. Nothing has diagnosed until today. Only one thing out of limits in my blood is B12 vitamin (As you may know it is used for repair of damaged nerves). It is normally around 10-20 percent above of the limit. According to most reputable doctor I seen, %20 difference is just nothing and he even says that although currently b12 level in my blood is higher than test machine can measure
, I still can use b12 tablets to relieve my pain, maybe not everyday but 1 tablet every 2 days.
During the whole these processes, there were times that severity of pain was unbearable. I had to take several pregabalin and gabapentin tablets in order to reduce the pain. I even was unable to sleep!
I tried every possible medication in the market:
Anticonvulsants:
pregabalin,
gabapentin Anti-depressants:
duloxetine,
amitriptyline,
opipramol,
bupropion,
imipramine, (probably more which I don’t remember now) Muscle Relaxants:
thiocolchicoside, tizanidine, cyclobenzaprine, methocarbamol, baclofen
From end of 2018 to beginning of 2023, I expected so much from medicines. Because many of them really stops the pain. However, ability of medicine prevents you to feel pain also doesn’t mean that medicine heals you!
You know reason of pain (at least for me) is an indication of damaged tissue and nerves. For recovery of the damaged area, the area must be treated well. What I mean is, i.e. if you have pain with your right shoulder, you should stop sleeping on your right shoulder, because sleeping on your right will harm that area more and increase your pain. In this way, when you use a medication which just blocks the pain, doesn’t heal you just like
pregabalin,
gabapentin, it just causes you to sleep on your right side (even if you try to not sleep on your right side, you may (I mean I do) turn to right side while sleeping). I just experienced very similar thing when I accepted having done
‘local anesthetic’ to my right shoulder.
Using pregabalin and gabapentin started causing new side-affects. Even if once I couldn’t convince an arrogant doctor,
pregabalin causes my bronchitis to exacerbate. Both
pregabalin,
gabapentin had very negative impact on my gum. My gum turned in to white, swelled out with pain. I believe if I didn’t stop using these, I would have lost many of my teeth.
When it comes to anti-depressants, I tried all of them above. Anti-depressants increase some hormones like dopamine or derivates of it and these hormones just enhances the nerve conduction. However, it again does not heal your damaged tissues or nerves. The relief that anti-depressant gives is just temporary and they just cause excessive side-affects. Such as decreased sex drive, sleepiness, dizziness etc.
When I left all of anti-depressants I just realized that my work-performance has enhanced drastically (saying this as software engineer).
I again tried every possible muscle relaxant in the market. I got very
minor benefit of them excluding
baclofen. Baclofen helped much more than others
and this is the only medication that I still use. I take one tablet irregularly. Daily use of it causes erectile dysfunction too.
As a result, don’t use any kind of medicine that just blocks the pain such as
pregabalin,
gabapentin, local anesthetics, and probably opioids too. Don’t use anti-depressants for reducing pain unless you need them for psychological issues.
I am not doctor, all of recommendation above belongs to my personal observations. However, I would like to say one thing: A lot of times, when I told doctors what medicines I tried, and when I asked ‘what do you think of that medicine’ most of them looked at me like “what the f** is that medicine, I am doctor and don’t know it”. Even last doctor I have seen modestly said that ‘how you know so many medicines…’
Alternative Therapies such as Ozone, Acupuncture
(To Be Continued)
Supplements are better than medicines but not all
Collagen, Alpha-lipoic acid, B12-cobalamin, B9-folic acid, Omega-3, Co-enzyme Q10,
L-Carnitine, SAME, 5-HTP, Melatonin
(To Be Continued)