Becca58

I‘ve turned into everything I never wanted to be due to fibro, osteo arthritis and incompetent doctors. I have 5 wonderful grandchildren that will never know who I was. I struggle but have them over for sleepovers, but can’t really play with them, just too much pain. M y optimism is the lowest ever. With COVID-19 so bad, I am a recluse. I rarely see or talk to anyone, sometimes for days on end. Depression is getting worse. My job is very stressful and I sit and type 55-60 hours a week. No matter what I do, very little helps. I can’t afford to be on disability, yet brain fog is bad, has been for 7 years. On my 3rd R.A. Dr who has charged me $800 in 2 visits, bloodwork shows normal so she says it’s not RA, only fibro. Yet surgeon who has done 2 surgeries on my feet due to arthritis says it’s definitely RA as after first surgery for hooked toe and bunion started twisting my foot sideways. Now he needs to operate to put plates and screws in it and straighten it but I can’t have it now as hospitals are 100%full from COVID-19. So walking is very hard and painful. I’ve never been a quitter but my Coping abilities are overwhelmed. Hoping to learn from others on the same difficult journey. Thanks.