Hello. I am sorry for what you are experiencing. I went through the exact same thing for several years when I was on antidepressants. I felt horrible in the mornings, suicidal ideation, extreme depression, always worst in the mornings. Horrible and dreadful thoughts and feelings. The antidepressants, and I cycled through five or six of them, all gave me the same side effects, these adverse effects which outweighed any benefit I was getting from the medications. What was happening in my case is that the drugs, the antidepressants, we're giving me horrible, disturbing night terrors. Worse than nightmares. These were night terrors involving real people in my life, real things in my life, but distorting and twisting them in a horrifying way. And of course, in addition to this terrible effect I was also not getting a restful night's sleep because of it. So I don't take antidepressants anymore and I have felt 101% better than I did when I was taking them. I would say 300% but I don't know if that's mathematically a thing. Lol. I consider myself at this point to be treatment resistant when it comes to antidepressants, but I have also discovered that I am not depressed anymore. Sure, I have normal depressive episodes just like everyone else in the world, but I don't have major depressive disorder like I did when I was on the drugs. Never again will I take an antidepressant of any type. I know they work great for some people, but I can tell you that you are not alone and this is a real thing that can happen because it happened to me. I don't know how many drugs you have been on, but I would speak to your doctor about switching to a different antidepressant and trying that out for a while. Some doctors will even prescribe anti-convulsion medication as an antidepressant. Speak to your doctor, be frank and honest, and really take this seriously. Decide for yourself whether the benefits outweigh the adverse effects. I find that there are so many other things I can do when I do get depressed like exercise, go for a hike, get some sunshine and fresh air, play with my dog, visit a friend, or engage in a passion of mine. I wish you the best and know that you are not alone. This can and does happen. I am proof of it. I hope that you find the right path either out of your depression or to successfully treat your depression without these terrifying effects. Namaste.