To me as you know I admire both of you Diamond and Vickythecat the most in here actually. And even though from many comments and posts I shared here might sometime sounding like I have it figured out, you guys know very well that I'm not, I'm very far from it. I can barely move inch by inch each day . I don't actually stand when I cook, I stroll on a rolling chair and sometime with a cane on the side in case a sudden blur vision or lost balance from the chair it self which happen far too often I still have bumps and bruises everywhere and still very scare . I can't stay away too far from bathroom and most of the time I'm on the bed constantly try to find comfort positions, or literally dragging my self on the floor if I happen to tripped over from sudden vertigo. On my very good day my body felt like being hit by a bus when I woke up, my Knees felt always on fire , i shake like a leaf when I locked my knee to stand still, from my neck down to my back felt like electric burning shock everytime I leaning forward my spine felt like there's a sharp wire wrapping around my body all the way from top to bottom even inside my back bones and rip cages those sharp wire kept on pulling and cutting deep in to it i can almost hear it it my ears that painful creaking and cracking sounds still ringing in my ears along with my screams. I choked so often from it I secretly wish if I could just drop dead now would be a good time. Feeling like bugs crawling under my skull or skin is a norm to me, my face aches and eyes always in so much puressure pains from lights, Humidity, sounds I constantly literally living in darkness. I always waken up Dracula style thanks to my sleep paralysis. (Thank god I still like garlic). My heart felt like I'm constantly jumping off a cliff it felt like I'm having a heart attack every hour . I believe the word "better coping skill " can also applied as the ability to still constantly living with it , with strong enough mind to live till tomorrow. Knowing what to do to survive just a day an hour even just a little minute longer that it will pass or will finally or hopefully get some sleep to fight another day. That advices given to one who does not know can be a life saving from suicidal or completely sanity. That is what I believe is a coping skill that should keep on sharing, encouraging ,supporting ,living, and just simply being human to one another. I don't think Maria22 meant any harm by it , I often made mistake saying things that came out horribly wrong before. I hopefully I'm right about this for once. No? :sad: