MissSpunky
Member
- Joined
- Jan 20, 2014
- Messages
- 15
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 00/0000
- Country
- US
- State
- state
Hi Everyone,
This is my third thread here. I think I may be on this forum for a while. I like it here. I don't know how many people would be interested in what I have to say but I am going to give posting here a shot anyways.
I want to start with a new attitude. I am going back to school, riding an hour on the bus there and back. My school is very populated with lots of stimulation. The nurses office will be difficult to get to in case I really need it. I am taking out major loans to pay my rent because school and work does not seem like a healthy option at the moment. This is my life, or more precisely a part of my life.
There are things that have been really getting to me like my neighbor shoveling the snow. I hear the scraping and it hurts so badly. I just want to pull my hair out from frustration. I always wanted to be the type of person who keeps their cool no matter what and here I am constantly feeling like punching people really hard because their noise literally hurts to hear. And this is what I am getting at. I need to feel better inside myself. This entire sickly mess is here inside of me, following me everywhere I go. I want to let this excruciating experience build me, build my character, patience, personality. It will be a shame to not take advantage of the opportunity to do this. This is my way of seeing some meaning and purpose in this point of my life. Because I generally feel robbed of my being. I am being poked and prodded in all directions bu doctors, psychiatrists and therapist. My life is a mystery with my needing to be intimately vulnerable to figure it out.
Writing here helps. Although there may not be any huge point or question here it helps.
I am interested in building online relationships with members here, so please feel free to comment or just say hi.
Have a wonderful day.
Miss Spunky!
This is my third thread here. I think I may be on this forum for a while. I like it here. I don't know how many people would be interested in what I have to say but I am going to give posting here a shot anyways.
I want to start with a new attitude. I am going back to school, riding an hour on the bus there and back. My school is very populated with lots of stimulation. The nurses office will be difficult to get to in case I really need it. I am taking out major loans to pay my rent because school and work does not seem like a healthy option at the moment. This is my life, or more precisely a part of my life.
There are things that have been really getting to me like my neighbor shoveling the snow. I hear the scraping and it hurts so badly. I just want to pull my hair out from frustration. I always wanted to be the type of person who keeps their cool no matter what and here I am constantly feeling like punching people really hard because their noise literally hurts to hear. And this is what I am getting at. I need to feel better inside myself. This entire sickly mess is here inside of me, following me everywhere I go. I want to let this excruciating experience build me, build my character, patience, personality. It will be a shame to not take advantage of the opportunity to do this. This is my way of seeing some meaning and purpose in this point of my life. Because I generally feel robbed of my being. I am being poked and prodded in all directions bu doctors, psychiatrists and therapist. My life is a mystery with my needing to be intimately vulnerable to figure it out.
Writing here helps. Although there may not be any huge point or question here it helps.
I am interested in building online relationships with members here, so please feel free to comment or just say hi.
Have a wonderful day.
Miss Spunky!