Hello painismylife, Welcome. My name is HAPPYTOBEALIVE,not HAPPYTOBEDEAD. Yes, There have been times when if I could die naturally, it would've been a Blessing.The pain can be overwhelming,people harp at you,"you're always sick". You get left out,or you feel too bad to go. It happens. When I was 6 ,going on 7,My Daddy took his own life. My entire life turned upside down. When I was 19, my best friend did the same thing. All her family and friends were devastated! She left behind a little 6 year old boy. I am telling you this, which I've never shared before,because no pain,no fatigue,no sickness of any kind..is worth taking your life! There are people in your life who will be devastated. Family and friends whose hearts will Never mend. I know it gets unbearable at times, but don't give up! Fight back with Knowledge! Figure out things that you can use to Defeat some of that Fibro pain! Not Every day will be this bad! There will be some good days! Life Is worth Living! I have had Fibro since I was a kid. I went undiagnosed forever because I didn't have Ins.,and I hurt too bad to work anymore. There were times when my head was splitting wide open with the pain, and I was hanging over the commode that I thought I might die. But, It wasn't my time. Don't let Fibro Beat you! Find something to Live for! There are other people right now who need Your Support,encouragement,help. And what if at some point,they find the cause for Fibro? Eventually,Someone will discover how to help us. There is so much to live for! Find Prof. help for your depression, learn things that will help your pain,fatigue,etc. If you choose death over life..You will break my heart! PLEASE! KEEP FIGHTING! Soft Hugs. We're here for you.