- Apr 25, 2019
- DX FIBRO
I have these days where I think of who I would be if I had the energy that I'm supposed to have. Simple things like spending time with my neices and nephew...and then other days when I'm sad because we decided not to have children because I wouldn't be able to keep up. And I feel cheated. I feel cheated out of the life I was suppose to have. It's a pain that's different then the daily pain I deal with every single second. Honestly I feel sometimes like the emotional pain is even worse. Only sometimes. I'm trying to find out who I can be with the limitations I have...some days I can almost pretend I'm normal but its always followed up by a day where I'm reminded that I'm not normal and never will be. Today is one of those days. I know I'll have better days but man... sometimes...it's just really really hard.