I was laying in bed...in pain...couldn't sleep! I just want to scream! I like most am on facebook but never post about what I am going through. Not that my friends and family wouldn't support me just don't want to advertise what I am going through! Well my husband and kids well they have heard it all seen it all enough, so I landed hear! I am just so tired of dealing with this! The pain, anxiety, depression, lack of energy, lack of sleep, feeling of worthlessness, being unable to be a mom and a wife, brain fog, irritability, the list goes on and on! The normal everyday trials and tribulations are just too much to deal with! When and where are the Good days! I have known its Fibromyalgia for 4 or 5 years now and the days just seem to get worse! The older my kids get the worse the depression gets! Missing so much of them! The more and longer my husband deals with it....me... the further we grow apart! Well probably just me and my feeling of worthlessness and not him but all the same it puts that strain on our relationship for me! I have bad days and worse days! I so need a good day! It is so hard to think positive when the pain or the depression or the anxiety or no energy or something is always going on! My sleep is so messed up! Sometimes I can sleep and well most of the time I don't. When I do it is never good sleep and I always wake up more tired than when I fell asleep! I know a bunch of rambling but I just needed to let out a little before I exploded! To all of you I feel your pain and it is REAL!