im-grouchy-and-bite
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- Joined
- Apr 6, 2015
- Messages
- 99
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 08/1988
- Country
- US
- State
- na
I get so tired of never being understood by anyone
My doctors my counselor my wife sure as hell not my family
And support net or life
Everyone is learn your limits or listen to your body etc to much to list wife I just don't understand this or that
Try living from school age till late 20s being called every name lazy useless worthless not trying excuses
To much to list now everyone is like o just shut it off you can't you can catch it watch for signs eetc get some control I'm a stubborn sob I fight all I can but you can't win against you're head all the time when it's that fubar
I have been refused at ERs called druggie drug seeking all that because I hide I can smile and talk till I pass out
My wife has been 11 years now trying to get me to admit I'm in pain and how much
Trying to get me to take pain pills I always thought I deserved to suffer for who and how I was
I always thought that more pain ment I was doing my job better I tought my head to want it
11 years ago when I met her I was at burn out and bottoming out
I have found it so hard and almost impossible to change over 20 some years of living and dealing with my
Crap the hardest and still is is she said your going to express your pain let it out
I still haven't figured that out I grunt or cuss and I say there that's all you get lol
I just get so tired of walking a walk where I always have to be alone or misunderstood
I'm tired of so many disorders mental and physical and being hated for who I am
Tired of death teasing me I have almost died 12 times or more mostly medication problems
Like wow even he doesn't want me
There that's my whining bad day rant
Thanks
My doctors my counselor my wife sure as hell not my family
And support net or life
Everyone is learn your limits or listen to your body etc to much to list wife I just don't understand this or that
Try living from school age till late 20s being called every name lazy useless worthless not trying excuses
To much to list now everyone is like o just shut it off you can't you can catch it watch for signs eetc get some control I'm a stubborn sob I fight all I can but you can't win against you're head all the time when it's that fubar
I have been refused at ERs called druggie drug seeking all that because I hide I can smile and talk till I pass out
My wife has been 11 years now trying to get me to admit I'm in pain and how much
Trying to get me to take pain pills I always thought I deserved to suffer for who and how I was
I always thought that more pain ment I was doing my job better I tought my head to want it
11 years ago when I met her I was at burn out and bottoming out
I have found it so hard and almost impossible to change over 20 some years of living and dealing with my
Crap the hardest and still is is she said your going to express your pain let it out
I still haven't figured that out I grunt or cuss and I say there that's all you get lol
I just get so tired of walking a walk where I always have to be alone or misunderstood
I'm tired of so many disorders mental and physical and being hated for who I am
Tired of death teasing me I have almost died 12 times or more mostly medication problems
Like wow even he doesn't want me
There that's my whining bad day rant
Thanks