Hi All,
This forum stuff is super new to me so, here it goes! I'm a 32 year old female with Fibro, Major Depression, Anxiety, back problems, and at times substance abuse (I still love my wine :razz Fibro has been for the past 4 years or so, but it have progressively gotten worse.
I'll try not to make this lengthy, but doubt that's an option. My Fibro is KILLING me! I'm on Cymbalta, every pain patch imaginable (smell like I'm 80 years old with all the creams),Lidoderm patch for my back, I was taking up to 15 Norco a day (talk about getting a tolerance), I can go on and on the stuff I've tried...
I finally got to the point where the addiction to the norco was only making it worse. My husband is AMAZING and really supportive, although he still doesn't really how I can feel like this everyday, I'm a newlywed and babies are on our mind soon. All I can think is, "ya right". I can't even take care of myself. I want to be a Mom SO bad, but I'm afraid. I digress...
I'm a Kaiser member and they've really taken care of me thus far. I'm down to 5-500 Hydro a day but most of you know that's def not enough to take the pain. I've read on many posts about, "numbing the pain", I def was trying to at least do that and that's how I got through the last couple years... So, now what?
I'm in agony everyday, I had to quit my job over this (I get no finical help and have no clue how to seek that out), The only time I get some peace is if I NyQuil myself to sleep at night or drink a bottle of wine (which is no buneo either for the rest of you that know alcohol isn't good for our "syndrome" too).
I have lost my energy, lust for life, all my passions I can't even do anymore. WHO AM I? Anyway, blah blah right? Sorry to come on here and vent. Guess it feels good to get it out to people who know the nightmare we live in each day. What, IF anything is helping anyone? BESIDES the narcotic route, so over that!
Thanks for reading
This forum stuff is super new to me so, here it goes! I'm a 32 year old female with Fibro, Major Depression, Anxiety, back problems, and at times substance abuse (I still love my wine :razz Fibro has been for the past 4 years or so, but it have progressively gotten worse.
I'll try not to make this lengthy, but doubt that's an option. My Fibro is KILLING me! I'm on Cymbalta, every pain patch imaginable (smell like I'm 80 years old with all the creams),Lidoderm patch for my back, I was taking up to 15 Norco a day (talk about getting a tolerance), I can go on and on the stuff I've tried...
I finally got to the point where the addiction to the norco was only making it worse. My husband is AMAZING and really supportive, although he still doesn't really how I can feel like this everyday, I'm a newlywed and babies are on our mind soon. All I can think is, "ya right". I can't even take care of myself. I want to be a Mom SO bad, but I'm afraid. I digress...
I'm a Kaiser member and they've really taken care of me thus far. I'm down to 5-500 Hydro a day but most of you know that's def not enough to take the pain. I've read on many posts about, "numbing the pain", I def was trying to at least do that and that's how I got through the last couple years... So, now what?
I'm in agony everyday, I had to quit my job over this (I get no finical help and have no clue how to seek that out), The only time I get some peace is if I NyQuil myself to sleep at night or drink a bottle of wine (which is no buneo either for the rest of you that know alcohol isn't good for our "syndrome" too).
I have lost my energy, lust for life, all my passions I can't even do anymore. WHO AM I? Anyway, blah blah right? Sorry to come on here and vent. Guess it feels good to get it out to people who know the nightmare we live in each day. What, IF anything is helping anyone? BESIDES the narcotic route, so over that!
Thanks for reading