Mojoblowjoe
New member
- Joined
- Feb 26, 2015
- Messages
- 9
- Reason
- DX FIBRO
- Diagnosis
- 10/2010
- Country
- US
- State
- no
hello,
I'm almost 30 and have been dealing with my Fibro for 5 years officially and 10 years unofficially......and I'm just looking at this long road, might live to 60 or longer with this how do I keep suffering through? I'm opiate intolerent and can only take them with cannabis(medical I live in a medical state) or I get really sick from them and its now illegal for me to take the medication that helps percacet and a joint twice daily.
Now I have to rely compeltly on cannabis(the only thing that helps me sleep, being insomniatic and have cronic fatigue is as close to hell as ive found) while i search through the endless drugs for one to replace the percacet(even tamidal has an ill effect like an opiate, even tryed kratom still got ill) but most are worse then the Fibro with the side effects......worst is trading my fibro fog for a cannabis fog is not a great trade off, Cbd rich cannabis products help a lot but are expensive and hard to find(even though most medical patients would benifit more from it).
I guess I just need to vent, I live a lonley life here and it gets to feel like I'm on an endless ride through torture town and everyone around me is smiling and happy. Being a man I feel like I'll never find a women who will except me......after all my ex-wife left me shortly after my condition got so bad I havnt been able to work for years now, its hard to be reliable when your body its self isnt and what kind of man is truly a Man if he cant be relied upon.
Idk i've already been through the suicide route and cant go through that again but to be honest I almost felt better wanting to kill my self because at least I had somthing, some escape plan some way out.....but now that I have religated to live my life tell its natural end Its like I've lost my last friend.....because those who suffer long term know the truth that death is all we have to control in life. I just wish I could find the zest for life so many seem to have these days, I feel like our society is so focused on making everyone glass half full thinkers that those of use (through circumstance or mentality) are glass half emty thinkers are told to sit in the corner and shut up.....which is the last thing we need from our fellow human. Wish I could be that cheerfull happy to be alive disabled person but I just dont think I have it in me anymore.
I'm almost 30 and have been dealing with my Fibro for 5 years officially and 10 years unofficially......and I'm just looking at this long road, might live to 60 or longer with this how do I keep suffering through? I'm opiate intolerent and can only take them with cannabis(medical I live in a medical state) or I get really sick from them and its now illegal for me to take the medication that helps percacet and a joint twice daily.
Now I have to rely compeltly on cannabis(the only thing that helps me sleep, being insomniatic and have cronic fatigue is as close to hell as ive found) while i search through the endless drugs for one to replace the percacet(even tamidal has an ill effect like an opiate, even tryed kratom still got ill) but most are worse then the Fibro with the side effects......worst is trading my fibro fog for a cannabis fog is not a great trade off, Cbd rich cannabis products help a lot but are expensive and hard to find(even though most medical patients would benifit more from it).
I guess I just need to vent, I live a lonley life here and it gets to feel like I'm on an endless ride through torture town and everyone around me is smiling and happy. Being a man I feel like I'll never find a women who will except me......after all my ex-wife left me shortly after my condition got so bad I havnt been able to work for years now, its hard to be reliable when your body its self isnt and what kind of man is truly a Man if he cant be relied upon.
Idk i've already been through the suicide route and cant go through that again but to be honest I almost felt better wanting to kill my self because at least I had somthing, some escape plan some way out.....but now that I have religated to live my life tell its natural end Its like I've lost my last friend.....because those who suffer long term know the truth that death is all we have to control in life. I just wish I could find the zest for life so many seem to have these days, I feel like our society is so focused on making everyone glass half full thinkers that those of use (through circumstance or mentality) are glass half emty thinkers are told to sit in the corner and shut up.....which is the last thing we need from our fellow human. Wish I could be that cheerfull happy to be alive disabled person but I just dont think I have it in me anymore.